Dream Job

More money + less responsibility + good staff welfare + ok colleagues = dream job?

Uh, hmm? This equation right or not?

If so, then how come it doesn't seem to work for me...?

What's your Choice?

If we always listen to our heart, will the world be in a chaos?

If we are always so rational, will the world be lifeless?

The brain is bigger than the heart for a reason?

Or it is of no coincidence that it is the heart that beats non-stop?

Follow the heart or the brain?

Which one will you choose?

Quotable Quotes

Love these quotes:

"Trust in your instincts and start. A thought or feeling of " Am i ready?" is a signal to start. Starting will always be the best way to get ready. So, the best way to get ready is to get going."

"The only things that stand between people and what they want from life is often merely the will to try it and the faith to believe that it is possible."

"Our greatest power is the power to choose. We can decide where we are, what we do, and what we think. No one can take the power to choose away from us. It is ours alone. We can do what we want to do. We can be who we want to be."

"Even a mistake may turn out to be the only thing necessary to a worthwhile achievement."

Powerful they are.... Let them serve me... :)

My encounter today

A cleaning lady made a difference in my life today... I was in the Ladies at my office early morning, and while washing my hands, I started having a conversation with this Malay lady, who is doing glass cleaning for a few different buildings.

She commented that she really loves the job that she is doing now as it is very interesting. She used to be working in an office, but now she is just in the service line doing cleaning – a job that some people will look down at. But like she said, she is earning an honest living and she is very happy in this job, thus she does not care about what people say to her or think of her.

And yes, from the way she spoke, I can sense her strong passion for this job. She is right - it doesn't matter where we are and what we are doing, as long as we love what we are doing. And if so, we should not bother too much with what other people have to say or think. What we love to do need not be spectacular in others’ eyes as we ourselves put a value to what we like, not what others see it as. We got to live for ourselves many a times first before satisfying others. If we cannot find a life for ourselves, how can we do something for someone else?

She exhibits so much positive energy too... I am indeed inspired...

Well, I never know who can just make a difference in my life. Haha… It may just take a simple conversation, a trivial incident, or someone to make me aware, realize, learn or to be reminded of certain stuff…

Regrets...

I rather regret an action
That I took
Than to regret something
That I fail to do

The act may be wrong
It may be miscalculated
It can be disastrous

Yet, in the very least
I have taken a risk
I have tried
I have an answer
I may close a chapter
And draw lessons
From the experience

That beats standing at a spot
Guessing how it can be
Or what it may be
Through pure imagination

Realisations...

Get to know myself even better …upon reflection of all the little things that had happened these few days...

Some self realisations that I got:

1. The things that I want in life are pretty simple.

2. Yet, I have high expectations of these simple things. In another words, I believe in giving best shots and desire the finest in these simplicities. Such irony?

3. Reaffirm the fact that money is not the main consideration or driving factor for me.

4. Instead, I desire personal growth & development. Stagnancy frustrates me. Perhaps my impatience speaks volume in this instance.

5. Dislike the idea of being complacent, and let life slip me by. It is all linked to point 4, I suppose.

6. Perhaps to trust my instinct or intuition, instead of just brushing them aside.

First Day...

First day at a new place... It was of course an anticipation phase before I stepped in - some excitement coupled with apprehension.

The start was fine. Colleagues are few on this floor, though there are many of them a floor below. Yet, being located at a different floor is not a major issue as my colleague told me that we do not deal much with the rest at all.. So solitary for a marketing dept...

Orientation of the office environment took a short while, fire drill took up an hour, IT took the rest. This was my morn.

Afternoon? Toured around the various floors, does not know who is who; HR talked to me, gave me lotsa forms to fill up! Arghhh! My immediate boss briefed me on some other stuff... and she is asking me to come up with things already! :(

But got a very sweet surprise from a friend... Got a bouquet of flowers with a fluffy doggie! It was a pleasant surprise, or to put it more plainly, it was a surprising pleasant shock! I could not find any name in the card, but I guess who it was from the sign off of "With loves and huggies"... I was pondering what did the receptionist has for me on my very first day when she emailed me to go to 20th floor for my little surprise! Haha...

See, how pretty and cute, ya? :) Thank you, my dear sweet friend! :))



Let’s see how things go from here. Perhaps it is not what I have expected... but what have I expected in the first place?

It is all too early to tell...

But for the first day, I have survived...

Another Dreamy Nite...

Had another long night full of dreams! I am pretty amazed by how creative and restless my brain can be at times - it can simply pick up anything that happens during the day and weave it into a dream, or create a scenario that totally throws me off guard when I am supposed to be resting and recharging!

Yet, how I wish I can have a switch, so I can switch off the active brain of mine as and when I like it. Or, at least I can slap it into motionless!

Visibility

How about this too?

“ In personal relationships (and in all relationships, really), it’s about loss. It’s about being afraid of what one might lose or fail to gain. Yet the best personal relationships…are relationships in which everyone knows everything; in which visibility is not only the watchword, but the only word; in which there simply are no secrets. ..Nothing is withheld, nothing is shaded or colored or hidden or disguised. Nothing is left out or unspoken. There is no guesswork, there is no game playing; no one is “doing a dance”, “running a number”, or “shining you on”.

This isn’t about having no mental privacy, no safe space in which to move through your personal process...

This is about simply being open and honest in your dealings with another. This is about simply telling the truth when you speak, and about withholding no truth when you know it should be spoken…

This is about coming clean, telling it like it is, giving it to them straight. This is about ensuring that all individuals have all the data and know everything they need to know on a subject. This is about fairness and openness and well...visibility.

Yet this does not mean that every single thought, every private fear, every darkest memory, every fleeting judgment, opinion, or reaction must be placed on the table for discussion and examination. That is not visibility, that is insanity, and it will make you crazy.

We are talking about simple, direct, straightforward, open, honest, complete communication. Yet even at that, it is a striking concept, and a little-used one...”

Enough for you to raise your eyebrows?! Haha...

Peace

How is this?

“ When you find peace from within, you also find that you can do without…

This mean simply that you no longer need the things of your outside world. “Not needing” is a great freedom. It frees you, first, from fear: fear that there is something you won’t have; fear that there is something you have that you will lose; and fear that without a certain thing, you won’t be happy.

Secondly, “not needing” frees you from anger. Anger is fear announced. When you have nothing to fear, you have nothing over which to be angry…

You know inwardly, intuitively, that everything you have created can be created again, or - more importantly - that it doesn’t matter.

When you find Inner Peace, neither the presence nor the absence of any person, place or things, condition, circumstance, or situation can be the Creator of your state of mind or the cause of your experience of being…

This does not mean that you reject all things of the body. Far from it. You experience being fully in your body and the delights of that, as you never have before.

Yet your involvement with things of the body will be voluntary, not mandatory. You will experience bodily sensations because you choose to, not because you are required to in order to feel happy or to justify sadness…

There is perfection in everything…

Need nothing, desire everything. Choose what show up…”

Rainy Day...

Such lazy and relaxing afternoon… It is finally raining outside… I love the rain… Such soothing effect at times…Hopefully this rain will wash away all the heat which was driving me to madness yesterday… And phew, luckily it rained after I did my swim… :)

Guess I must have been too free - I went to dig out emails that have been lying in my mailboxes for years. Some were received or written in year 2000! To think that mailbox sizes were so small back then, so I suppose it is of no coincidence how come I choose to keep these few emails.

These emails, a reflection of my state of being then, brought back memories - some people who left footprints in my life and events that made me grow, be it pleasant or not.

Events, experiences, learning, beliefs, memories… The past makes the present me today. This is the same for everyone, isn't it? Events create the experiences, experiences translate into learning and shape the beliefs, beliefs drive the ways I behave and react today.

Yet, learning is continuous. I am constantly learning how to be better for myself and for the people around me. Do give me a nudge if I forget or lose that along the way.

Knowing You

With you just next to me
Halfway through all our conversations
It suddenly hits me…

How much do I know about you?
Do I really know who you are?
Or I only see how you seem?
Doubts start to cloud my mind...

Perhaps I never try hard enough
To know and understand you
At a depth that I wish to
To get closer to your heart
In a place that I desire…

No, I am not complaining
It is not about that
Just that I do not know
How I can be
Of a contribution to your life…

Close Friends...

Went for dinner with my sweet friend yesterday night. It was a good dinner indeed… Thank you, my friend, for making time to have dinner with me…

We touched on the topic of friends yesterday, and I was telling her that I am getting weary from trying to figure out what is going on for a friend. We went on further to explore the definition of “close” means as it differs from person to person.

Guess she is indeed right - I have my expectations of what a close relationship looks like.

To me, close means trust, openness, communication, authenticity and understanding:

Without trust, how can we build a stronger relationship?

Without openness, how can we know what is going on in each other’s life?

Without communication, how can we understand each other better?

Without authenticity, how do I know you mean what you say and vice versa?

Without understanding, how can we empathize and be supportive to each other?

It doesn’t mean 2 will agree on almost everything and anything. In fact, it may not be at all - one can offer a totally different point of view and yet be supportive anyway.

Perhaps I am asking too much? Or these are just the basic building blocks?

I do suppose 2 persons will drift apart and the bonding will fade when each other’s visions and expectations are misaligned in a relationship. This is also why we cannot be close to everyone and anyone. It takes 2 hands to clap to make the bonding stronger and the relationship closer over time.

To me, it is never about who is giving or taking more in a relationship. I think that cannot be measured as we all show our love in our own ways…

Just for a handful of people who have a special place in my heart, I am certainly more than willing to go the extra mile for them, to adjust and adapt to their styles and try to be there for them. The reason is simple - because You matter. Period. Yet, sometimes this journey can get very tedious…especially when there is so much withholding from the other person.

Sidetracking a little, my friend said this “ Loving a person for who he is, isn’t easy. Cos if you know a person well enough, it’s either way to give in, to lower expectation or the other party to fulfill the expectations. Who make the move depend on who is willing to change.”

Can I offer a different point of view to that? Loving someone doesn’t mean you blindly agree and support everything he is doing, as he may be slightly off track now. By allowing him to be where he is now, are you supporting him to grow? A person never changes, but he can slowly shift... Accepting will mean lower the bar for that person? You may be able to see so much power in him, yet he cannot see it for now. Do you let him be? Is that called loving and supporting him? Or you should try all means to support him so that he can be out there to soar to higher skies? You need to put in effort, in fact more effort to support the person to shift and excel rather than to just accept…

I guess for that, the bottom line is the space that you are coming from - for him or for yourself…

Ended...

Yes, it happened all in a flash.. It is over. Today marks the end of my working life in the company.

Was busy the whole day, and at 7pm, I was still struggling to delete all the stuff in my pc. Yes, my pc got a lot of my personal stuff, like pictures, songs, screensavers etc. This was a blessing in disguise in fact, cos I do not have the time to pause and think further.

Was hiding at another floor when it came 6pm. Know that I did not want people to come to me and say a lot of things... One of my staff sent me this sms at 617pm “Trying to siam us rite?” I burst out laughing to myself when I saw that sms... Best part is I took a train filled with ads that we have done for the company recently!

Only when all is settled and quiet, I know very clearly that I’m not going back tomorrow. Only when alone, I started to let my emotions flow. No, it is not getting out of hand. All that I am feeling now is inevitable - after all, I have made many friends here over these few years, yes, I will miss my seat for that little while…Yet, I also know these feelings are transient - they will pass very quickly… When a new chapter is started, there is little time and no need for me to look back and live in the past…especially when it is just about work…

Last day

Listening to some sentimental hits passed to me by a friend… Gosh… Such oldies.. Yet still never fail to move my heart… Evoking some memories perhaps. Bringing my mood to another level perhaps… Whichever…

Tomorrow will be my last day in my present company. Looking back, 3 months notice period passed in a flash. It was in fact a pretty busy time for me till a few weeks ago when I could finally relax and take a slight breather at work.

For the past 2 years 7 months, it has been a roller coaster ride indeed... Many ups and downs... I have learnt many things here in a way or another. Think work and management will not be something that I will miss. It will be the people here that I will miss - those that I am close to, those who have made a difference in my life in a way or another.

There are a few that I had grown pretty attached to, and had left the company one by one some time back. Some of them are indeed special in ways I do not know how to put across in words. Nothing will change the memories I had with them, even if our relationship is to change some time down the road.

At the same time, there are some who are still here. One had been a great company to me during last year management brainstorming session. He was the one who made my torturous 2 and ½ days so much better. It was that trip that brought us closer. He had been thoughtful in a way or another, perking me up every now and then. I will miss his supply of songs definitely! :P

There are my 2 staff as well, who have braved through the storms with me. They have stood by me and fought with me. I do thank for all the laughter, fun and their patience with me. Perhaps I have not been as great a boss to them that I should have been, but I did try my best in whatever way I know how. Though of course, I could always be much better in every little way. And tonight dinner with them was indeed so great even though we might be talking some nonsensical stuff at times…The feeling is just so…comfortable and warm… I do hope that they will have a easy time with their new head going forward...

There is this gal as well, who suddenly popped into my life out of the blues. She is almost everywhere and anywhere! Haha. She is one sweet gal - gentle, loving, caring, passionate and sensitive. She is one great pal who has made my last few months here especially great. Thanks for all your nice surprises, showers of gifts, and generous love. It has been fantastic with you around. If you are a guy, you would have put a lot of guys to shame! :P You are too sweet in your own little ways. I hope you will find a guy who appreciates you for who you are. But before that can happen, do open your heart to them, and let them come in. You may be in for surprises…

And yes, there is this guy whom I always go down to buy bread or kopi together and have lunches together at times. The morning breaks are good breathers from work at times. We have shared quite a numbers of things together. He has been pretty crappy at times, yet, he is also one guy who is open and willing to share his personal life and thoughts with me. For all these, I appreciate and seriously, I think I would miss the days when we sat at the fountain, talking as we munched away our breads as breakfast.

Of course, there are still many who are superb - those who have managed to withstand my nonsense, my bitchy nature and temper, and yet still be so ever nice and sweet to me. For some, thanks for sharing and letting me into your life, so that I can be a contribution. Knowing and being able to contribute is part of receiving for me… Thank you.

Tomorrow will soon come… Whatever will be, will be… Let’s not get too emotional… It will be a new chapter for me soon... But some things will not change for sure...

Mood...

Late in the nite
Such stirring music
Just back from a trip
Yet mood is somehow not quite rite

What’s up?
My mind playing tricks?
Or my heart failing me?
Am I controlling the mood?
Or the mood is controlling me?

Let me sleep it away tonight...

Miss & Missing

Missing someone
The desire of his presence
And yet to feel the absence of him
This feeling is so unfathomable

It slowly creeps up
In any form possible
Without a single warning
It hits you
It engulfs you
It consumes you
Throwing you into total loneliness

When nightfall is here
Stars are the only ones awake
The moon exudes such irresistible charm
With such idyllic mood
Thoughts can flow freely
And yet so randomly
This feeling is especially intense

Have you ever wondered…
Why miss? Why him?
Why not anyone else?
Someone important?
Someone dear?
Someone close?
Or...?

Whichever…

Are you missing someone now?

Updates...

The previous post was actually done at 7pm…

So the latest update after seeing my doc…Apparently, he said it is NOt gastritis or stomach ulcer… He kept asking me to describe the pain, which I was literally scratching my head. Haha. It is so hard to put specific words into these kind of feelings! He also kept asking me about how exactly I feel when in pain, symptoms, for how long etc.

After all the conversations and checks, he told me some cheem words on my conditions, but in simple words, I concluded it should be some stomach disorder. And from his words, I also deduced that he implied that my this persistent ‘gastric’ pain may be stressed induced. My conversation with him on the topic of stress was pretty funny:

Him: Are you stressed?

Me: Uhh, I don’t think so.

Him: (As he pressed my tummy to check) Do you have a lot of deadlines to meet?

Me: Eh… Don’t have. I don’t think I am stressed at work.

Him: (Smart reply) Then you are stressed over your family lah?

Me: Ok la. Just that both of my parents are sick recently… But I dun think I am that stressed.

Him: Best, you don’t even know you are stressed or not.

Then he even went on to prescribe one type of pill to make me relax! :-O

Anyway, I am taking 6 different types of pills from him now. He said I should be fine very soon. Of course, he added that if I am still not well, I must go and find him to complain (his very own words!).

Well, we should see how things go from here. Fingers crossed.

Still Not Well...

I am a sick cat…:( My stomach pain is still here after 11 long days. It is so persistent that it is irritating the hell out of me!! The attacks can be any time after morning, and the pain is getting so acute nowadays. The medicines the company doctor gave me 5 days ago were practically useless. I still need to take extra cimetidine on top of his medicines to ease the pain. Was practically struggling in pain (and in silence…) when I was at my friend’s house last Friday night. That was one of the worst attacks.

However, I was better on Sat and fine on Sun, thus I thought I have recovered. That was obviously too early a conclusion - I got 2 consecutive days of attacks again. The attack this late morning was too much for me to take it that I went back to my company doctor. He suggested endoscopy for me, but added on to say that mine is less than 2 weeks, so I can still wait and see. In the end, I took the stronger medicines he prescribed, only to realise that they don't seem to work again. Like a defeated cat, I could only make my way home to rest.

The main frustation stems from the fact that the pain is so paralyzing - it is hard to be running around doing things with the pain. At times, I just feel like stopping short and purr like a kitten seeking for some attention and TLC. I also feel like screaming it out loud that I am already at my brim, so stop telling me things, stop pushing me, stop waiting for me and just me to get things sorted out and handled. Let me have some space to breathe and maneuver. I am only one person - there is only that much I can do. I cannot take on the whole family on my shoulders and run. Breakdown, this is one definitely.

Going to see my family doctor later. See what he got to say. He is a very experienced doctor, just that one got to wait darn long before one can get to see him lor. This is the umpteen time that I am seeing a doc for this pain… Ok, not umpteen time, just the 3rd time.

6 Distinctions

6 distinctions that have served me faithfully these few years:

1. 100% is possible 100% of the time.
2. If it is to be, it is up to me.
3. Life is an enrollment game.
4. Teamwork, team players working towards a common vision
5. My vision, commitments, promises dictate my actions, not my feelings, assessments or evaluations.
6. I honour my words with my actions.

These distinctions have become a part of me, so much so that it is an automatic to practice them without me realising it. Human beings are indeed habitual creatures, isn't it? :P

Which distinction serves me best? It is distinction 5, no doubt about it…

Me...

I am just an ordinary mortal
Far from perfect
I have my desires, I have my fears
I have my flaws, I have my bad days

Do not expect too much from me
Do not think highly of me
For many an occasion
I do not have the slightest idea how to rise up to it

“Why” is the driving factor to all creations
Not “how”…
This I understand in depth
Yet this journey is never easy
Bewilderments, struggles, breakdowns, failures
I have more than my fair share...

This is just me...
Far from who you think I am…

What a day again!

Ok, this is going to be one long entry, definitely… Cos the day seems to be pretty long for me.

Today is a lousy day definitely. PMS day?! Perhaps? Hahaha..

Firstly, I am still taking my medicine. My gastritis is still acting up every now and then. That is getting me super irritated because it doesn't seem to go away. The feelings of bloated stomach, pain and nausea suck big time, to be very truthful. On top of that, I took my cough syrup this morning as I started coughing, thus got me to feel very drowsy. During lunch, I was almost like Alice in Wonderland, high without any alcohol. In the end, I ended up resting in the toilet, trying to take forty winks after my lunch... That was how desperate I am.

Secondly, I just had a fight with my boss over my last day in this company. She called me at 2+pm and her voice was raised the moment I picked up the call, as if she was interrogating some criminals. This is the gist of the conversation that we had:

Her: I thought you are extending till 17 Nov.
Me: No. I have checked with HR. They said she (my replacement) could only come in on 16 Nov. Then there is no point for me to stay till 17 Nov. Only 2 days with her.

Her: No, she is coming in on the 13 Nov.
Me: No, I just checked with HR 2 days ago.
Her: By right, you cannot take leave when you are serving notice. This is a company policy. But I allowed you to take on the understanding that you will extend.
Me: I do not think that policy was stated in my letter of appointment.
Her: If you leave on 14, then I am going to die! There is no one to hand things over to her, or teach her things!
Me: (Darn pissed off tone already) But that is very unfair to me, right? I am already serving my 3 months here leh.
Her: (still insistent) She is coming on the 13. Then you can have a whole week with her. HR got it wrong. I am going to call them and check.
Me: They told me it is 16 Nov.
Her: No, it is not. I am going to scold them. I check and let you know.

Well, I never promised her that I would stay till 17 Nov. I only told her that I got to check on my schedule. Oh, did I say that her attitude was so bad? I was darn pissed with that. It is her privilege if I stayed a day longer, not my obligation. I am serving my THREE months here, not any shorter! I got no more obligations to ensure that my duties are properly handed over by then. Not to mention that she attempted to threaten me with company policy. That is the last straw for me! I am not new here - I know how it works. I am not dumb either - I could jolly well leave at this very instance and pay back the remaining days that I am supposed to be in this company. There is no loss for me. And I am the only one who knows what to do in my role. No one else does. I am the one with the bargaining power, not her.

Subsequently, she came over to my desk and talked about it pretty loudly in the open. I only gave her a " so-what" and " I-do-not-care-more" attitude. Think she saw my face and attitude to realise that I am darn pissed, and that I would not give in to her threats. As such, she changed to a nicer tone, and tried talking to me in a more reasonable tone. In the end, I am only extending one more day to 15 Nov. Bottom line, any attempt to threaten me and you will get it from me. If you need a favour, ask, not demand. Respect is meant to be earned, not given.

With all these, I also got a feedback with regards to my impatience. Said that it deterred him from asking and telling me things. What am I supposed to say to that? Upon reflection, when things are going the other way for me, I know I get more impatient and short tempered than I usually am. That I am in the wrong. Perhaps I am letting that getting out of hand recently. Perhaps there are too many things on my mind. Yet, there is no excuse for my temper and impatience. I am not the only one who may be having a bad day. As such, I gotta to be sensitive enough to other people too. I wun like it too if I know the other party is impatient with me...

Yet, when the other person is pointing fingers at me, is that fair? I do not know and do not wish to think about it. Giving it a careful thought now, I realise that communication breakdown is one thing that I am fearful of. Communication breakdown has been the main contributing factor to my breaks in relationships with people. Once that goes wrong, everything else will go wrong...

Anyway, let me sit on it and give it a further thought...

Today...

I finally went to see the company doc today for my gastritis, which has been bothering me for a week already. Need to see him for my badly inflammed throat, so might as well get him to take a look at my gastric problems too. Not too bad, isn't it? I get to kill 2 birds with one stone! Save my time and effort. :P

Accordingly to him, gastritis, which is a mild inflammation of the stomach lining, may last for as long as 2 weeks! So it is usual for me to have all the gastric symptoms for a week. He asked me to stop my Cimetidine. Instead I was given Zantac and Motilim. Let's hope these medicine work better for me… Not forgetting my poor inflammed throat that is getting so painful. Please get well quickly too, so that I can eat all that I want!

Going to bunk in with my long time friend today and tomorrow. Her parents are overseas till next Thu and she refuses to be alone in the whole house, thus has requested for my company.

Knew this great friend since I was Primary 4! Amazing, right? The best part was we only got closer to each other after we left Primary School! It all began when we started playing badminton together regularly in the open-air court near our blocks. From there on, our friendship just grows and blossoms.

We 2 actually seldom get together. In fact, being busy in our own lives, we rarely even keep in contact to know what’s up in the other person’s life. The longest break was in fact about 2 years. It was only a few months back that we managed to meet up for lunch. Yet, whenever we meet up, the distance is never felt. I know I still can tell her anything; I know she will listen and understand; I know she will be there for me anytime I need her... This is the kind of friendship we have established over these long years.

Do not know what I will do in her house. But well, who cares? Just enjoy lor, and sleep of course! Hahaha…

The Power of Time

Can time gauge the depth of your relationship with another person?
Do you have an unexplained bonding with someone you just knew, as if you have known each other for the past decades?
Yet you cannot fathom the heart of the one whom has been sleeping next to you for as long as you can remember?

Can time heal the pain, bring the sun and dry the rain?
Is a hurt as intense as before?

Or has it faded with time?
Are you as bitter as you used to be?

Or have you forgiven and uncaged yourself?
Have you drawn a lesson from it and be better the next time?

Can time erase the memories?
Can you recollect what you did an hour ago or a week ago?
Yet do you find yourself reminiscing the beautiful moments you had shared with someone many years back?
Captured moments are always a part of us even though we may not remember?

Can time change a relationship of any kind?
The only constant in this world is changes?

Yet have you made the change better or worse?
How have you contributed to it - active or passive, a giver or a taker?
Have you wanted it bad enough to rough through it all and make it work out?

Can time change your choices?
What you wanted yesterday may not be what you want today or tomorrow?
What do you want at this point in time?
When was the last time you sit down and think about and for yourself?
Do you recall when was it that you realign your visions with your inner self?

Yet one thing is for sure
Time passed can never be recaptured
Moments lost can never be recreated
The experience of being fully alive is an experience itself

Ironical as it may sound, part of the enjoyment in life is the journey of struggles towards what you want

Experience life to the fullest today for tomorrow may not come

Carpe Diem...