..Again..

Thots of what is happening make me feel like puking now.

Not even angry anymore. Not even pissed.
Just feeling very...demoralised?

Is that the right word?

Or just feeling low?
Here I'm trying so hard to make things happen

And some people are trying to make life more difficult for me than anything.

All those behind -the- back stunts.
All those unscrupulous acts.
That's so much about human being's dark side.
Not saying that I am innocent to this kind of things
In fact I got more than enough fair share of this before

Thus it is so amazing that I still can be so affected by it.

So much for all my trying...
So much for my effort...
And i got a taste of how all credits and efforts can be just easily erased

By another person's malicious words

...again....