Limping away...

*%&#&@*!~ I had been limping away the whole day long today. My left calf hurt big time when I tried to walk… The agony was tripled when going down a slope or flights of stairs… The pain intensified as the day passed… So I was cursing and swearing as I walked around from one place to another this whole afternoon .

It must be due to the insufficient and improper warming up cum cooling down yesterday before my run. Or is it purely just about my lousy chicken legs? It is always my left calf that seems ready to cramp whenever I went for slightly longer distance run… But oops, I did test my legs a little further today as I went for a swim at noon before going out.

Hope my calf will be better tomorrow. Otherwise, it will be awful feeling to be in my heels…

Too much alcohol?

Did I have a drop too much? Or is my body failing me?

I went for a team dinner at The Sage yesterday after the first day of the marketing offsite. Reluctant indeed as it was evening, and the time was supposed to be personal. Nevertheless, know that I am supposed to be “nice”, thus I accepted the invitation.

Cutting the long story short, I had a drink of course as I was with all the Aussies. Had a glass of champagne and some white wine while having dinner. I did not think I drank a lot, yet the aftermath was horrible…

I was in a perfect piece after the 3+h of dinner and on my way home. However, I was feeling bloated when home, so I decided to just lie down for awhile, only to fall asleep for an hour. Yet, I had such difficult time standing up in the bathroom that I needed to sit down on the floor for my shower thereafter… Even though I was totally sober, the alcohol seemed to have consumed me fully - my body was weak, breathing was laborious and legs ready to give way …

I quickened my paces in my night cleaning up routine, drowned myself with lots of water before falling onto my bed to close the chapter for the night.

First time that I ever felt this way after a drink… Wonder what chemical reaction had taken place in my body during dinner… Whichever, the feeling sucked. Think I better be good and stay off from alcohol…

What a Sunday!

The weather was perfect today - the sun was hiding behind the clouds most of the times, and the wind was in a fantastic mood... which made my cycling such an enjoyable activity.

We were planning for a Ubin cycling trip actually. However, the weather seemed to be going on a strike this morning, with the sky filled with dark cloud. The four of us stared into it and wondered if we should take the risk afterall.

After some hesitation, we went for a hearty brunch at Bukit Timah Food Centre and headed down to East Coast Park instead. As usual, the bike rental was for 2 hours, as 1 hour was thrown in free. We headed towards Bedok Jetty direction, and suddenly my brother saw the direction arrow that said "park connector to Bedok Reservoir". So well, the rest was history when we decided to carry our bikes down and up the 2 flights of stairs to get past the underground pass to try out the novel route.

A first attempt at this route, every other turn seemed to be as exciting as the last, with new discovery, experience and learning for the four of us... And we met with a park connector dead end on our way back to ECP that sent all of us grumbling as this meant detour. How can there be a dead end to a connector?!? Gosh.

In the end, a usual 2h leisure cycling turned into a 4h trip, with a U-turn made halfway at Bedok Reservoir Park. Our bums were painful, thighs were numb, with shoulders and arms red from the sun when we finally reached the rental shop to return our bikes...

Yet, it was thoroughly a fun-filled experience for each of us...

Again, it was about injecting something different into an activity that we usually do... to get a different high and satisfaction...

Good Friday

Good Friday... Definitely happy as it was finally a long weekend... A good break for resting and recharging... Badly needed...

I slept in, waking up in late morning... and, I took another 2h nap in the early evening too... Opps... Yup yup, I know I am a pig... Sleep, eat, sleep, eat...

Had dinner before attempting a 20km run in the night... The run ended past 12 midnight... What the hell.... It was a torture to do one such long run every weekend, cos it means lotsa sleeping and resting the next day to recuperate. Such a disciplined lifestyle suddenly huh???!!!

My brother and girlfriend timed themselves quite well as they reached just before we were done with the run. They are planning to spend the next few days of the long weekend over at our house... (Usually, that means lotsa pigging out and eating...) So we went out for supper thereafter before concussing shortly after reaching home.

Yes, the run was all gone to waste, as usual...

Yet another nightmare

Yes, another nightmare yesterday night...

It was so bad that I let out a scream before being jolted out of my slumber...

Gee, can I have no more of these? I need peaceful sleep.

问号

复杂的心情 难以形容
有些话 从未说出口
或许三言两语说不清
也或许一个眼神就能明白
这样的交叉点好吗？

My Nightmare

I had a terrible nightmare yesterday... And it has got me very perturbed today...

Of course, a dream being a dream, sometime there is no head no tail - people just appear in and out of the dream, the beginning may not have connection with the end, and there may not be any logical flow at all.

Yet, I do remember one scene very well - I was the vixen that created chaos in another man’s family. Apparently, his wife and young daughter followed him while he was out to have a rendezvous with me. I remembered we spotted a young girl behind us and he was frozen in actions at that instant moment. I only then realized that was his daughter, with his wife just a distance away.

I recalled in horror how the wife confronted me, sobbing how I had destroyed her family’s happiness, as the hubby never exactly cared about them anymore. I remembered vividly how flustered I was, trying to explain that it was never my intention to come in-between or to break up their family or to upset their status quo…Yet, the more I tried, the worse I made it to be. The feeling of guilt, fear and horror was so intensively overwhelming in the dream that I forgot if I was still breathing then...

And yes, the dream got to me, as when I recollected the intensity of my dream. I was such a wicked and selfish woman that simply disregarded consequences by being with a married man; I was such a foolish woman whom knowingly self-created such a big mess for myself... and the worst thing is I was out there to wave an invisible knife that caused hurt to another party... How I hate myself for that.

Icks, icks, icks...

Revamp...

It is time for a change...
I suddenly got sick of my blog page...
That I decide to do something about it...
Spending a bit of time and effort to get it polished up yesterday night...
Such that it is much more appealing... at least to myself...

Having the same thing for too long... get stale...
It is always essential to inject something different into the same stuff...
Otherwise, I would bore myself to death even others din...

Progression...is a natural tendency...
Stick in the mud cannot go anywhere...
As doing the same thing cannot yield a different result...

Oops, I am getting out of point again...

Whichever, I feel this new design is a better reflection of where I am now...
The desire for more holidays, enjoyment, relaxation, serenity and undisturbed peace...

Back from HK!

I am finally back from Hong Kong. It was a super short working trip, with me checking into the hotel at 11pm on Mon night, and checking out at 8am today. Yesterday seemed to last forever, as I stupidly stood in front of our company booth, trying to “sell my smiles” since early morning. Simply, I could not wait for the time for the event tear-down, as I was really getting very bored. I mean it was for the sales staff to mingle and network; it was not a place meant for me as there is nothing much I could contribute!

Of course, it was good for me to be there to oversee the event. At least I could make sure that our booth was properly set up, and I got a good idea of how the whole event is run, checked out what our competitors are doing, and garnered some marketing ideas from them. However, helping my sales colleagues to run the booth was totally suicidal, not to say that all the male colleagues there did not even offer to help me do the tear-down even though they were just there. It was totally embarrassing when the girl from the next booth offered to help me, asking me if there was no one to help me. Eeks!

It was a consolation that I did get some personal time last evening. I made my way down to Causeway Bay after an hour nap (think the lack of sleep and long day, coupled with the champagne after work got me really groggy that I knocked out). As I walked along the streets and explored the shopping malls alone, I was glad to have the chance to be with the crowd and bask in the city’s vibrancy and busyness in such relaxed manner after a day of work.

And yes, there is a duplication of the same event tomorrow in homeland. So it is another long day... But at least I can look forward to going home and my bed after the day ends...

Today

I must have woken up from the wrong side of the bed today. I am feeling pretty blue for the whole day long for some reasons or another. My patience is thin, of course. If one understands me well enough, one would know that my small facial expressions and body gestures have obviously given away my increasing impatience... Yet, at the same time, I am attempting to contend for the best actress of the Oscar award, thus I am still communicating with smiles and niceness in office. Hopefully, I could have pulled it off huh?!

I am certainly glad that tomorrow is a Thu already. I cannot wait for weekend to come, and definitely hoping that next week would be over in a blink (next week is a nightmare week!).

Think I would be chirper tomorrow... since weekend is getting close on heels...

Whichever the case, just don’t attempt to test my patience though. I bite. (What's new?) :O

Busy!

What can I say? Busy, busy, busy! What a nightmare March!

And I am flying to Hong Kong for a short business trip next Mon evening to oversee the logistics of an event... Super short trip, will be back in Sinagpore next Wed afternoon to do the set-up and attend the same forum in Singapore the following day...

Icks, no fun...