My Retribution

Words should never be said too early…
For it was a nightmare for the rest of the week…
Suddenly, all things were urgent…
Heaps of meetings, tons of things to do, countless of errands…
My meals were messed up, my breathing seemed to come to a halt…
My retribution uh?!
Uhm!

I am sick

Long story short here ah.. I got an illness recently, or rather from start of this week. Okee, I do not know "start of this week" is fact or a belief to start off with. Maybe it has been there all along! Haaa…

I am down with lan(3) duo(4) bing(4), i.e. lazy disease. I think it is a super strong virus attack and it is cancerous. I can feel my limps rotting away, my liver and lungs decaying, and my brain and heart dying…

Although there may be mountain high of work piling up, but what can be so urgent that the company would collapse if I dun address it? Does anyone bother? Does it matter? What for and for who if I put in extra effort to go the extra mile? Can’t I get away with it like all other people who are experts in these taiji and “smoking” martial art?

Thus this is the current state:

Do not feel like doing, do not feel like pushing it through, do not feel like bothering… Dun know, dun care, dun bother…

How long is this going to last? I dunno… I have yet to get any inspiration (read: identifying the root of the problems) from my run in gym yesterday night. I thought I might... Uhm.

So bottom line: let's wait and see – either I get killed for my lazy disease or I may get a miraculous cure?!


P.S: It is irritating when I know clearly that the price to pay can be very high… but then again, I am too lazy to think through this as well.

Singapore won Olympics Silver Medal

Finally, it was a silver medal for Singapore after 48 long years. Li Jiawei, Feng Tianwei and Wang Yuegu came in 2nd in the women's table tennis team event yesterday at the Olympics. It was a proud moment to see Singapore flag hung up high with China and Korea.

It was expected that the girls would walk away with silver. After all, they were playing against China top rated team, consisting of the World's number 1 and 2 players. Of course, some also had commented that it was just a game of China against China - these 3 girls and their coach were all born and trained in China and recruited to Singapore for their paddling skills.

This controversy of foreign born players vs true blue local Singaporean players will not end just yet; however, this silver does set the standard for our local athletes. They finally have something to emulate - it is a hard slog to get to the top, but if you remain dedicated to your sports, your reward will eventually come. The lesson to be learnt is tremendous, though we undeniably still have a very long and tedious journey in sports.

Simply Runs...

Isn't it amazing what people take away from the same incident? Different people realise and learn different things, some people never did learn. How interesting. The depth of understanding, what is it dependent on? Is that a factor of intellect, mindfulness, life experience, or a willing to be open??...

I did an evening run at ECP after work last Friday. The distance covered was modest - only 10km, but I enjoyed the run itself. It was my first evening run at ECP, thus it was a brand new experience for me. I enjoyed the breeze, scenery, jog, companions and the experience itself. I got new jogging partners for that night, but that could possibly be the first and last time that the 3 of us were doing it together...

It was a long story leading up to the run itself. It started off as a simple consensus to do a run together. Then some issues cropped up - we obviously had different points of views to this pact. Then there was the logistics challenge - where to run, and how to handle our barangs…

In the end, we decided on ECP that very evening, and I was glad we picked that place. Ignoring all the issues that cropped up along the way (and some were not and still have not been addressed properly), I still had fun last Fri… Oh, I should add that my upper thighs were aching thereafter! *rolled eyes*

So, is that run an end or a means to an end? We all did what we agreed upon, i.e. the run on 080808. Yet, what is important - the actual run, or the preparation towards it? And what comes after the run? Does it stop and end there? Or it signifies the start for more to come? Is it just about completing that run or it encompasses more complex issues underneath – the purpose of it, and a reflection of who and how you are? It is funny how different each of our focus point and point of views can be. It shows how uniquely different we human beings can be.

Whichever, I did another run at ECP on Sunday morning. After the experience on Fri, I decided to alter my Sat night running routine and try out a different route under different conditions. I must be a mountain turtle indeed, for I was surprised to see so many runners on a Sun morning there! Haaa… (U see, I am never an early riser on weekends!). This time round, I covered slightly longer distance, 16km or so with Dan. Somehow the changes in the conditions made the run stretchier than usual. In the same run, I realised that I ought to train more under the sun so that my body can get used to heat, which slows me down a lot.

More runs to be made happen at ECP going forward, be it after work or on weekend mornings, thanks to Fri trial run.

No NDP

Yes, I may be one of those few who super duper love to be at the National Day Parade itself… It is of so much fun to be there! The mood is contagious!

Yet, I got no ticket to be there this year. :( So as a matter of silent protest, I ended up sleeping from 7pm to 830pm on Sat night… till the whole NDP was over and done with…

Did I say that I was unable to fall asleep at night due to the late nap? Duh.

只是小毛病吗？

Extracted partthereof again:

每个人。。。自然也有不想被看到的阴暗面。这些阴暗面说不定连自己都未曾察觉。。。 你不去面对这些阴暗面，因为你不喜欢这样的自己，但是躲避并不表示它不存在。工作、家庭、人际交往中的很多问题，说不定都有“阴暗面”作祟。

这“阴暗面”就像个小鬼，时不时出来发飚，很难克服。

“千里之堤，溃于蚁穴。”很长很长的堤坝，因为小小蚁虫的啃噬，最后也会被摧毁。所以不要小看自己的小毛病，这些小毛病的积累可能会使你的人生毁于一旦。

进行“内窥镜”的过程是痛苦的，就像面对自己坏习惯的过程中，难免会挣扎一样。但自我反省。。。只要你愿意，随时可以进行。

Finally, some photos

Oh yes, finally a few photos here of my recent Manado dive trip. :)

Spearing mantis shrimp, do not mess with it for its pincers are powerful enough to break your diving mask!


Coconut octopus... Why does it like to squeeze itself into such a tiny place?


Emperor shrimps - female and male. Female is always domineering - bigger in size certainly!


Can you tell that it is a spider crab?! :-O I tried so hard to make sense out of it!


Nudibranch!


Frogfish, with full of warts. Ha.


Finally, a nice shot of the mandarinfish after 10min of waiting and shooting!


Banggai Cardinalfish, found only at 2 places, one of which is Lembeh Straits


Leaf frogfish, lotsa colour variation - pink, purple, white etc.


How do you like your teeth to be cleaned by cleaner shrimps?

My thots for the day

Sometimes, I think I am a fool, and being made a fool of.

Am I too gullible? Do I look dumb? Am I easily brushed aside?

Or am I puerilely stupid enough to believe you?

Do not give empty commitments that I plainly (and naively) hold your words to.

Do not promise me something that you have no intention of delivering.

It is not about how big or small the agreements are – every action speaks especially when it matters.

Give me that a few times, and you know I would totally erase you off.